One year yesterday.

"March 24, 2012"

Hey baby girl, I'm here to tell you
You've completely disappeared.
Your presence has consumed me
Nearly the whole past year.
When I heard your voice change to a whisper,
Then leave me completely alone;
Now for sure, I can believe in my heart
That you're never coming back.

Baby girl, you should know
I can't see you anymore.
I can't hear you anymore.
I can't feel you anymore.

Right after you left, my life was filled with despair.
I saw you every night, in every dream I had,
And every morning, I awoke clutching the pillow you used to warm.
Now I only see your memory in the necklace around my neck.

I used to know your voice better than my own,
And the sound of you jingling around filled my homes,
But now, in moments when I doubt,
I challenge myself to recall how you used to sound.

A year ago today, I held you in my lap at the vet.
I stroked your fur hard, trying to burn it into my mind, so I'd never forget
The thing that calmed me whenever I felt lonely,
All of it's just ashes now in your mystery urn.

I miss you, baby girl, oh how I miss you.
You're becoming a memory I can't remember to forget.
I can't ask you to never leave me,
Because I can tell that you've already moved on.
Wait for me in Heaven now,
I'll come get you when I belong.

3/25/2012
-Amy